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Story Time #1

 

Nagkaron ka na ba ng near-death experience? Ayokong magexxagerate pero feeling ko yun yung naramdaman ko kahapon. Hahaha Sa mga movies, bago mamatay yung bida merong flashback. Lagi kong tinatanong sarili ko kung may time ka pa bang magmuni-muni kung mamamatay ka na dahil sa sudden death? I thought it was a fake; created to make films dramatic and entertaining. Well, unless keri mo yung peg ni Prof. Severus Snape… unless keri mong gawing memory card ang last tear mo. (Harry Potter reference everyone 😀 )

 

 

So the story goes like this, pumunta ako ng MLhuilier for some financial concerns of course. May usapan kami ni Joash na bibilhan ko ng Jollibee toys si Kobe. I was waiting for a jeepney for a ride. Then came that yellow, hindi-naman-masyadong-bulok na townace. It’s like a jeepney here in our hometown btw.

 

I am one of those pasahero na mahilig sa front passenger seat for a number of reasons. Kesehodang mukhang bulok na si jeep, mag fa front-seat ako if hindi naman occupied. Mahigit isang minuto na akong komportableng nakaupo sa upuan nang biglang nangyari ang hindi ko inaasahan.

 

Parang isang hapon na nakatambay ka sa may barbeque stand. Mausok… Literal na mausok… Napapalibutan ka ng usok. Yun lang, yung usok walang makatulo-laway na amoy… walang smoky aroma.  Yung usok di galing sa harap ko, kundi sa likod ko!

 

Blurry…blurry na ang isip ko. Sinilip ko si manong driver sa tabi ko pero wala syang kaalam-alam na umuusok na yung upuan ko. “KUYA, ano to?” Whatda! Kung di ko pa sya tinanong, malamang di sya magiging aware na unti-unti na akong nagkakanervous breakdown. Hahahaha

 

I was silently hoping that he would be reassuring, but the words that came out from his mouth were not a comfort…. at all. “BUKSAN mo!”, sabi ni manong driver referring to the door.

 

But you must have missed the first part of the story where I said “hindi-naman-masyadong-bulok na townace”, it is not a joke! Right at that moment, I would give anything to open that heck of a door but I was trapped. Ito yung tipo ng townace na dahil sa katandaan wala ng handle ang door on both sides… yes! ON BOTH F!@#%NG SIDES! To make it worse? Si Kuya driver lang may alam kung pano ako makakatakas sa nightmare na yun. I tried to ask for his help and I saw him doing everything “he knows” he can to see what’s happening and how to fix it. Busy si kuya at ayoko syang istorbohin. Hahahaha stupid me.

 

 

I might be sharing to you this story in thousand of words already but mind you, it only happened in like seconds.

 

You know those parts of the movies that we watch where the character is about to face death… instead of doing everything he/she can to protect himself/herself, that character would froze… and greet death like an old friend. This was me! No kidding! For a good 2 seconds, I thought, tanggap ko na. It was my end already. Like hey bitch, it’s the end of the line for you.

 

And here is where the slow-motion-flashback came. Call me owver but duh…it’s true! Hahahahaha I saw my life in like a slow-motion movie that lasted for what? 2 seconds?! 1second?! Nakakafrustrate! Ano? ganun na lang yun? Paano si Kobe? Paano kami ni Joash? Paano pamilya ko? Paano career ko?

 

Then realization hit my clouded brain, finally! “Di pa ako dapat mamatay!” “Magkakaron pa ako ng apo kay Kobe!” “Ikakasal pa ako!” blah blah blah. With that in mind, I made a crazy decision. Kung di ako kayang tulungan ni kuya, I will save myself. And I did.

 

Tumalon ako galing sa bintana ng townace. Yes. Kung paano ko yun nagawa, di ko na alam kung tama pa ang pagkakatanda ko. Basta! I landed with my right knee. Ouch! May pasa na sya ngayon while I’m writing. Wala na akong pakealam kung anong itsura ko. Kung mala Black Widow ba o Krystalla ang pose ko. Basta, the moment I landed I looked for a spot to hide. To hide kasi in my mind, may susunod na pagsabog. To hide, kasi yung tindera sa tindahan ng tingging gasoline wagas kung makatawa dahil sa ginawa ko. Hindi ko sya masisi pero that was still very annoying. Hahahahaha (tawa na lang *rolls eyes*)

 

 

Mabuti na lang si ate tindera may pabiling softdrinks at may pabiling load kaya nabawasan ang inis ko sa kanya. Hahahaha  The first person I called was Joash. Trip ko magsumbong bakit ba. Hahahahaha I felt like I was the dumbest idiot alive. O kung may mas malala pa, sige akuin ko na. 😀

 

Turns out, nag over heat daw sabi ni kuya driver. Sabi ko naman sa kanya “KUYA, AYOKO MAWALAN NG NANAY ANG ANAK KO! BWISIT KA!” Pagkatapos, walk out… Sakay sa sunod na jeep. Tuloy ang byahe pa JOBE. OF COURSE!

 

 

Sorry na man. It’s not everyday that I see a smoking jeep but it’s everyday that I see news. Authorities expecting us to be vigilant because of terrorism. Pasensya na po, advance lang ako mag isip. LOL

I learned a lot from this experience, kidding aside. While I was in “that” situation, I realized that I am not yet ready to die. I am not happy enough to say that I lived a wonderful life. Naniniwala ako sa signs, if God is telling me something… I wish He would be more specific. One thing is for sure, I’ll try my best to be happy. I will choose happiness because I only live once. It’s okay to be hurt, even multiple times, because that’s part of growing up. Try to live with less regrets. 🙂

 

This experience reminded me of a conversation between Pres. Duterte and Vie Ganda. Watch the video here. 

DUTERTE : “You know, you only live ONCE..If it is good, then once is enough”
VICE : “If you live once, how many times do you die?”
DUTERTE : “Well several times in a lifetime… heartaches..”

KOBE @ 2

What does it take to be the his mother nowadays? I reckon it’s not just my sentiment, but of all mothers as well. Still, no kid is the same. It just happened that my kobelablab seems to be a ball of energy ready to piss me off big time, to scare the hell out of me and to charm his way to my heart.

I’m afraid it’s impossible to describe my ray of sunshine in words. Nevertheless, let me share some reasons and scenarios as proofs of his ability to make my life more colorful than it could ever be.

1. Kobe’s status

Kobe is not much of a talker. At the age of 2, he has limited speech but I actually don’t mind. As long as hindi sya bingi, okay lang sa akin kung medyo late ang speech development nya. Other people believes that a child’s early exposure to gadgets may make it difficult for the child to develop language skill. Pero hello? 2018 na po! Common na yung mga batang nagyouyoutube para manood ng baby shark no. For me, okay lang naman eh. We, parents just need to be mindful of the duration and frequency of their gadget use. Syempre pa, we should also see to it na maganda yung contents ng pinapanood ng mga anak natin online.

Moving on to the positive side, one thing I noticed sa aking nanak… I dunno if it’s advanced or not, compared sa ibang mga bata. But at the age of 2, he can distinguish colors already. He knows the colors red, blue, green, yellow, pink, purple, black and white.

He can also play the shape puzzles well, especially the circle, triangles, x-sign and the heart. I often hear him say the word (in his own pronunciation lol) se-kah, swer, harrr. Go figure! He also likes to arrange stuffs in a very organized manner. Here are some pics of it.

 

 

2. Hyper Kobe

Hyper is perhaps an understatement. Sobrang active nya. Period.

3. Pet Lover Kobe

One thing I noticed with my son is that hindi sya takot sa animals like dogs and cats. I dunno if it’s usually the same with kids in his age. He’s not yet afraid to touch and hold pets. Until when? We will see. One thing is for sure… I am happy about it.

 
4. Beach BAEby
Always been my caption, if you see his FB beach photos. I can’t help but notice that my son is definitely a beach baeby… maybe one day “beach hottie”. Hahahaha (fingers crossed)

 

Unfortunately for me, I can’t post videos here. In case you want to see it for yourself, yo might wanna check out my son’s FB acct at facebook.com/KobeZoleta or you can view his vids at my Youtube channel @ MutyaGemal. 

Happy new year everyone! Let’s welcome 2019 with renewed minds and hearts. God bless us all! 

Ferdinand Gemal

Papa in a really bad photo. LOL

 

I rarely talk about my papa. It’s not that I totally forgot about him. It’s just that most of the memories I have about him were sad. It’s too personal that I don’t have the courage to talk about it in this blog. 

 

But today is the anniversary of the day my life drastically changed. His anniversary… Death anniversary. Exactly one month after we celebrated my ninth year in this world, He marked my father’s last.

 

My memories of him were vague. While writing this, I realize that it was my personal choice to forget most of it. Naranasan nyo na ba yung pakiramdam na gusto mo na lang kalimutan yung nakaraan? Sometimes, it hurts to remember. Honestly, thinking about it now, he was not a perfect father but we didn’t have a perfect family either.

 

He has flaws… a lot, actually. But I can fully say, with conviction, that he was a good man. Otherwise, he would still be alive. As the saying goes, “matagal mamatay ang masamang damo”. And as the song says, “Ang bait mo naman sana kunin ka na ni Lord”.Hahaha logic huh!

 

Pa, Hindi ko alam kung may internet access ka dyan… kung nasan ka man ngayon hikhik. Kung di mo man to mabasa in writing, please find a way to read what’s in my heart right now. I just want you to know that I am sorry. I am sorry for all the mistakes I have done that I was not aware of. I was too young… to young to know what is right from wrong. I will forever feel sorry for being that stupid. You did not deserve it… at all. Thank you for giving me life. Dahil pa rin sa sperm mo kaya meron na rin akong sariling pamilya. Hehehe I may not grew up having an actual father. But I want you to know that you’re brother did a good job.

 

Kalimutan ko man yung masasamang alaala ko sayo pero hindi yung masasaya. You will always be the best father for me. You were and you are my guardian angel. Di po napariwara buhay ko kahit wala ka po. Salamat sa pakikinig sa mga panahong humihingi ako ng tulong sa inyo. I call your name when I need to make tough decisions. I call your name when I am miserable. I know you’re just there for me.

 

I have lots of things to say to you but I want to say it in front of you. I miss you pang. I love you.

It’s Been a While…

They say that the only constant thing in the world is change and I believe that…BIG TIME.

 

A lot of things happened, too many to mention. Slowly but surely, we are fixing everything. Life is a bitch and you gotta learn how to handle it.

 

These past few years have been nightmares and sweet dreams combined.  I failed.. I made mistakes… I endured the consequences… I learned… and I am now moving forward for the better.

 

CHAR! Ang drama! Kidding aside, I miss this blog. It’s not like nawalan ako ng access sa internet connection or nakalimutan ko password ko sa wordpress. I just don’t know how to start writing. Haha Ang daming nangyaring malungkot. Ang daming problemang dumating at patuloy ko pa ring hinaharap. Pero isa ang sigurado ako. Nagkaron ako ng bagay na habang buhay kong ipagpapasalamat kay Lord God. 

 

I now have my very own family.  ❤

My love…

Joash and Chris Emmanuel 

 

 

The thing about young families is that they got to spend longer time together.

Foods I can not Resist

Same as the famous line goes “the fastest way to a man’s heart is through his stomach”; most definitely, the best way to please me is through foods! Joash must be thankful na marunong siya sa kusina at ang dali kong lambingin. Lol  😄

Let me share to you the foods that I could not resist, unless of course I need to.
Rest assured, “no thanks” would not be a response if you offer me these yum yums. 😂

1.   Spaghetti

If it’s creamier it’s tastier. If it’s cheesier it’s better. If it’s meatier it’s merrier. If it’s all of the above well I need to sit down and eat it, right? Hahaha my all time favorite spaghetti. The first food that I’ll put in my plate and usually the food that I’ll have a second round with. 😊

2.    Lumpiang Shanghai

I suddenly remember my mamang. Every time she attends kainan or parties and she gets the chance to bring home for me, after looking for spaghetti hahanap na siya ng lumpiang shanghai. Hahaha  😂 mothers know best ika nga. I love all lumpias but the meaty lumpias are the best together with sukang pinakurat! yum yum yum  😄

3. Fries

Who doesn’t love to eat fries while watching movies? Who doesn’t crave for it at times? Fries is not just a staple fast food order, it is my popcorn! I prefer to bring fries than popcorn because I just like it better. Who’s with me?  ✋✋✋

Those who know me personally would definitely disagree with this list. Why? Well, they will assume that the list is endless. Of course not! Let’s settle with this for now. Ciao!  😄

Day ’til Night with RS2B

Day… 

 Vikings’ website says it all, from lavish architecture that makes dining money-worthy to the mouth watering dishes meticulously arranged in a way that you’ll end up using more than 5 plates in one bounty meal. Well, more than 5 plates “happened” with each one of us though. Lol!

Our expedited plan of spending lunch together was fueled by the fact that we fear the unknown. We were afraid that it might be the first and the last since our line of work always require us to accept and adapt change even in a short notice. Carpe diem! And yes we did! The much awaited luncheon was supposed to be at 11:00 in the morning sharp but when you are a Filipino, of course “sharp” really ain’t a powerful word. We arrived at our own individual desired time but nevertheless shared foods, stories and laughter as a team.

Lots  had happened that day but few of them left a remarkable spot in my mind and in my heart. Moments that are worth remembering and worth sharing. I would be damned if I will not compliment the food.  I can still remember the first thing I told TL Paul the moment we set foot at the venue… “TL take pictures ha? I’ll post it in my blog” and my ever-supportive supervisor happily obliged. Moments later, he was no where visible only to find out he was roaming the whole place taking pictures.  And then there’s  the never ending selfies, not-oh-so-candid shots and of course the group pictures which we surely loved.

 

*that Dinuguan tho! Witwew! Ang saraaaaaap   🙂

 

Siyempre pa di mawawala ang walang kamatayang group pics!   😀

 

Night…

If only we could stay at that place until dinner, we were more than willing to.  LOL   😀 It ended up us being one of the last persons to go out of the dining hall. Of course we can’t call it a day yet. We craved for more time together so we decided to spend the rest of the hours feeling like a siren.   We sang our hearts out and yes.. we Videoke’d! Being the good-girlfriend that I am and my team being the most understanding, no alcohol for yours truly. Takot po ako sa karma! Hahaha. First venue was in Mic One Family and KTV and second one was somewhere around Rizal  Avenue and honestly I don’t know what’s the name of it but according to Chad (a team mate), it’s called Calle Otso.    I was very full and they were drunk, so as the most sober member I took care of our bills… only the collection tho.   Almost 11PM and it was a wrap. We decided to part ways not leaving without the evidence of the fun filled day we shared together for the first time.

 

We started the day thinking that it would be our first and last time to spend time together but we surely ended it determined to do otherwise.  ❤

Lovelots  RS2b!  

 

Imagine You and Me with Biko

I have been an Aldub fan since last year, so when the news came that they will be making their own movie… I just decided that I won’t miss it for the world. LOL 😀 Back then, when both Gara and Andrew were still in Italy to shoot this film, I already made sure that it would be part of my budget for July. Budget? check! Now the next question would be, who will I watch it with? On a second, I thought of my best friend (Lhorinel) but changed my mind almost the same time. Hahaha she won’t spend her money watching Aldub movie or should I say she won’t waste her time watching it. Period! *rolls eyes*

The thought of watching it alone became inviting but then as the days pass, the hype from my co-ADN members made me realize that being with myself would be so hard. Who will I pinch and push when I feel “kilig”? So sad. Then I came with a decision that by hook or by crook, I will convince biko Mr. Joash Zoleta to accompany me and serve as my punching bag. LOL 😀

July 13 , 2016 – Thursday… last day of my workweek na kaya naman nagdadaydream na ako ng kung ano bang pwedeng mangyari sa 2-day off ko. One thing is for sure, I’ll spend my Friday together with my team. Share ko sa inyo happenings during our team building sa next post ko. Whahahaha 😀 *evil laugh* 😀  Going back… even before Thursday came, may usapan na kami ni biko na sa bibisita ako sa kanya after work. I wasn’t able to inform him about my whereabouts kaya ayun, I needed to wake him up through phone call pa so I stayed outside pa waiting for him. My mind is so precoocupied about the ways that I could convince him na samahan akong manood ng IYAM yet, deep down inside me, I am confident na hindi niya ako matitiis. Whahahaha I just need to convince him just to make sure.

Using my infamous puppy eyes, (that he always mock as pabebe) I invited him to join me the same exact day. It’s really a good thing that it is his rest day as well. Mind you… he requested for his off to be the same day as mine and fortunately it was granted but with some petty consequences.

Surely,  I may look like this outside…

I just hoped I looked convincing like her! But in his eyes, i dread I may look stupid. Hahaha 😀

 

but I’m definitely like this inside. Subukan mo lang akong tanggihan! 😀 Girls, you know what I mean.

After less than 10 minutes of discussing, which I enjoyed ‘coz I succeeded, we decided to watch it at his neighbor’s place. Guys, when I say na kapitbahay nya lang to I mean it. Not more than 5 minutes walk from his boarding house will lead you to GMALL of Toril. It is a somehow new-built shopping mall and just like any other malls… it has cinemas of course. And since I came from work, he let me sleep the whole day and woke me up around 6pm for the 6:30pm showing.

Why Politicians Are Corrupt

Disclaimer: This article/story is based on my own observation as per experience. In short, it’s my opinion so don’t expect too much “researched facts” here. Lovelots!

 

I’m writing this in May 9, 2016 and sadly I wasn’t able to cast my vote. You see, I’m working in Davao City my hometown is in Cotabato City and  that’s 5-hour travel to and 5-hour travel from. Leave requests are not granted during busy days in my work so as the saying goes… no choice! Earlier this day,  I’m so distracted because I really want to be updated about the elections. This election is supposed to be my very first “legal age” election. (SK was the first one) When I registered last year, I envisioned myself taking pictures as a souvenir and I considered it as my baptism as one of the voting public. *sighs* I guess I’ll wait for next three years to do this.

My distraction led to curiosity. I asked myself, “bakit kaya corrupt ang mga politicians?”. Then I remembered something. It was during Elections 2010 that I figured out one of the possible reasons why politicians are tempted to do evil.

It was summer vacation after my third year in high school last May 2010 and I have nothing to do. I heard that one candidate for City Councilor post is looking for people that could help him campaign. Me, being a frustrated and aspiring political analyst volunteered myself. (of course I expected to be paid 😀 ) The tasks were very simple;  distributing flyers and pamphlets in the daylight and accompanying the elders paste campaign materials during night time and some petty stuffs. More than what I earned monetarily during that time, it is the experience that I value the most until now.

 Perhaps the good thing about helping an independent candidate is that you got the chance to go to places around the city without the big noisy crowd of those that has complete line ups. Our councilor got the chance to speak closely and directly with the people in different prone areas of the city. He did not focus on the main barangays in the city because he’s known there. We targeted those barangays where seldom candidates visit because of the safety, the ease of transportation and of course the number of audience. DUH!

Other than the places that we visited I also had a picture as to how a politician live their lives during election. Everyday, people would knock at our residence bringing envelopes, solicitation letters for graduation, birthdays, weddings and funerals (almost for all occasions)  and they are even selling  products. And common sense would tell you sino ka para tumanggi?! I watch how many hundred bills are being removed in his wallet everyday. I was even asked once to go to a store and have thousand bills exchanged to smaller bills. Ang sakit sa bulsa! Sobra! That’s why I asked myself how much does a politician earn, especially the local ones, to be able to cope up with the demands of the public? ‘Di ba?

Is this one of the reasons why they are tempted to steal money? to abuse power? to take advantage of the situation? Be the judge!

 

My Favorite Websites: FACTSlides

This is going to be the first feature of my My Favorite Websites. This series of blog posts will contain my favorite parts of the world wide web, my pass time and my sanctuary. Let me know if we share the same thoughts or just let me know if I miss some of those AHAmazing sites! 🙂

 

Have you ever encountered visiting FACTSlides? Well, tired of looking like that “too much information” emoticon? Oh common! Stand up… grab some snacks and pour some coffee or some juice or whatever you want, jeez. Lie back and enjoy this one-shot website that will keep your mind stocked with some random amazing facts. Take note! When I say random, I literally mean RRRRRAAAANNDDDOOOMMM. Lots of categories to choose from or if you want just click that –> and just go with the flow. Hahaha 😀

Are you there now? I hope you are. Good layout, right? It’s so engaging because of the pictures but it’s kinda confusing because of the division of the words.. or is it me? 😀 By the way, here are the pics of some of my favorite slides in the website. Enjoy!

Want more? Visit the website now. 🙂

Currently (posted January 14, 2016)

 

Hi guys! Thanks for dropping by, wala sa plano ko ang magpost ngayon pero dahil sa insistent demand ng unang taong nagsabi sa akin to continue with this blog, shoot! 😀 #feelinghappy 

I really don’t have the intention to post it here in my wordpress blog because it’s kinda negative. Hahaha every time I read this I can’t help but remember how much frustrated I was while writing it… or should I say typing it. One proofread and voila! Posted! 😀 I was very frustrated because of my soon-to-be-denied-PTO request. Hahaha 😀 I can still even remember how I pouted like there’s no tomorrow! Never decide when at you’re at peak of your emotions is always been one of my motto in life. But hey! Tao lang po ako… napupuno din. I just thank heavens that I could easily vent my negative thoughts through writing and/or reading. I just copied it from my blogspot account though, hope you don’t mind.

So much for an introduction. Here it is! Share me your thoughts and it would be super duper appreciated. Lovelots! ❤

 

Currently contemplating why am I in this industry? Ito yung tipo ng trabahong hindi mo mapapansin ang pagdaan ng araw dahil literal na tulog ka during daytime. I know there are better people than me, in terms of intellect and such, that’s in this industry. Nevertheless, why am I here? Some things happened that’s why I did not have a choice but to look for a job that offers good pay and the processing was super fast. I badly needed money at that time. In the long run I enjoyed being one of the 40% tax provider of the Philippines (in terms of industry). This is a lot of fun considering the fact that pag natapos duty mo sa araw na ito, lahat ng stress ng previous day pwede nang i-let go in the following day.